The Story of A Boil

Yes, the blog is literally about a "Story of a Boil" that i had. Doctors called it "Sebaceous Cyst", something that occurs due to an infection by the bacterium Staphylococcus aureus. So I had a waxing done recently, and that waxing, along with this bacterium infection resulted in a Huge BOIL. As this blog is all about Raw emotions and confessions, i would like to bring out my emotional stages during this painful process of the boil, which by the way is still on my leg and has not left.

So after it growing for almost 5 days, thinking that it is just a heat boil and would go off by drinking loads of buttermilk and keeping ice, it was really huge and extremely painful. I have fussed for the smallest of pain, but as this was a boil I never took it seriously and was feeling extremely shameful to crib about it. Due to my lack of knowledge, i dragged it too long and then at last i went to a doctor nearby, who suggested Injections and a truck load of antibiotics. Me being Me, i ran out of that place :)! The doctor also scared me saying that if the infection spreads further, we might have to do a surgery and if left untreated then it might cause serious infections and even sepsis which can be fatal.

So within a few minutes, my whole life seemed like it changed, the boil which was supposed to be just a heat boil became a fatal life threatening machine! I was not ready for something like that, and as always, we as humans would google everything and research as if we are PHD doctors, and it made my situation worse!

After much of thinking and a day of extreme home remedies such as plant "ARKA", "ALOE VERA" and turmeric(I would still like to believe that this wonder working plants really did the magic, as the boil started releasing the pus almost immediately in a days time), we took ayurvedic medications for clearing the blood and acting as antibiotics. The pain didn't subside and me being 0% pain tolerant person, had to succumb and go in for allopathy. Had an amazing cousin sister of mine, who really walked me through the entire thing with such patience. Her name is Dr. Lydia Solomon, she lives in Punjab. I am still on treatment.

Now what is the point of this blog, the point was, the pain of the boil was unbearable and i could literally see through my skin, I could hardly walk, could not carry shawn or even bring him near me. Running was so far away, climbing stairs became a task. All of a sudden, thought struck me, what if i lose my leg forever, what if i can never run and play with my kids ever! What if i could never move my legs and dance. I have heard cases of things happening this way, when you get a boil, and the pain was supporting all that people said. I sat hours in the bathroom with wet towel and hot water trying to bring some relief in pain and heal the boil. The fact that people who got boils in the Bible, also messed with my mind, i went on guilt trips!

Boils are nothing but situations in our life, all of us have boil like situations, that might leave scars and are painful to heal, but we need to allow them to drain the infectious pus inside them. God brings us Painful, Boil Situations to tell us something is wrong and we need to act on it. Boils in our body are actually the result of our immune system, blowing up every bacteria it finds, causing inflammation. Boils might also be the result of us having a careless attitude towards somethings, that God wants us to focus on.

This Boil, really taught me to love the legs God gave me, this boil taught me to live everyday such that if tomorrow i don't have a leg to walk, i can boldly say that i did all that i wanted to do with the leg i once had, this boil taught me to value what we have already and use it greatest potential rather than cribbing about the smallest of things, this boil taught me to value the health we have to play with our children which most of us as parents always push aside, this boil taught me to see that even without a leg, my life is not over, and i need to love it and be joyful with or without any part of our life.

I realised, life might seem long and we might feel young today, but time is running every second, and time once lost can never be got. What best way to spend time, than to love, care, cherish, laugh and give back what you learnt.

Though my pus is draining everyday without surgical treatment, the opening of the boil has become really big, that the area is painful, right now there is some amount of slough around the boil opening. I apply coconut oil, as it really calms my skin down and speeds up healing process. But the part that makes me dizzy every time is, seeing my skin through and seeing the depth of the cut cause of the draining of the pus, every time i open it for dressing. I am still in shock, and i am still not over it. I am still recovering mentally and physically from it. Its traumatic in a way to see your own flesh torn apart and your tissues exposed, but God is pulling me through. I would like to believe I am the case of Job, where the devil is having a conversation with God and God has super trust in my trust in Him. I earnestly pray in my heart and soul and mind, to give me strength to say "it is well with my soul" no matter what life throws at me.